Saturday, October 6, 2012

I....


I was never a princess,
I was never a queen,
I didn’t have castles,
That’s why I never dream.

I never walked on smooth roads,
I never walked on dew,
I never had a pair of legs,
To seldom walk through.

I always had a borrowed smile,
I always lived a borrowed life,
I never let my heart open,
To let others live through.

I wanted to have castles of my own,
I wanted to have legs which I own,
I wanted to let my soul live,
But this world has always choked my throne.

copyright@monikadubey

Thursday, September 20, 2012

A Fishy Life...



A Fishy Life...
18th September, 2012, Manipal: She wakes up at 3 am in the morning to reach Malpe fishing Port where she has to stand out first to get the work done of transporting fishes from boats to trucks. This hardly pays her 100 to 150 rupees a day which is dependant and fluctuates on the profits earned by the port dealers for that day. 

Shanta Damani, a daily wage worker from Vadabandeshwar Region, Malpe, is one of the hundred women who bake themselves in scorching sun just to run their families alone. She is the only working member of the family of five members. Her husband is paralyzed and contributions towards a healthy life are nil. 

Shanta, although having a 21 year son who works in a government office has left his parents to starve after marriage. The lady’s life is completely dependent on Malpe Fishing Port where she gets her daily wage and sometimes fishes thrown at the corners that become the happy meal for her family for supper. 

Her life is always in quest for something or the other starting early in the morning where she looks for dealers to hire her as a daily wage worker and in the end, hunt some fishes here and there in the corners for her bread. Her thoughts are always seeking for a nice eligible boy would marry her daughter and lead a good life with her- the daughter who stays with her relatives in Belli village of Gadag district in North Karnataka. 

Back at home in Belli, her nostalgia does not seem to end of the pain and the kind of life she had to live there. Coming down south to work was a hope like a lamp that never ceased to burn the spirit in her.  But her desperation to work coming down to South also had to face consequences – she had to sell off her land and her house. 

When she came here destiny took a new turn showing her the worst of worst days. She had to see the nightmares of not being able to pay a mere fifteen hundred rupees rent and a decent one square meal a day.
Her existence has become her ghost that she prays for courage to die, of not being able to earn enough money for her husband’s medicines as her daily wage keeps varying every day even though she tirelessly does the same work. When she sees her husband suffer, her last wish is that he dies instead of suffering, all because his medicine supply is not there.